Dressing nice makes me feel better because I love fashion so much. It's art to me. It's expression. It makes me freaking happy, contrary to insecure cynical idiotic beliefs, it's not to "rub it in your face" and parade around superficially. It is for my own personal enjoyment. Ugh. I just have no patience for ignorant and contemptuous people anymore more. If they only knew how disrespectful there were being, based on my true situation.
It makes me sad and angry that I was damaged for so many years this way, before I really chose to "rise above the bully." I wrote a song about it describing the consequences of what happens if you don't - the damage that happens when you turn your pain onto yourself - and affirming why it is necessary to do, to reclaim one's own sense of self respect.